Cara Delevingne Gets Real About Addiction: "There's An Element Of Feeling Invisible"
It's a season of healing for Cara Delevingne. In recent months, the model has been at the center of concerns after disturbing images surfaced online and reports about her strange behavior took over social media. Those "sources" were popping up from one outlet to another to offer anonymous insight into what was going on behind the scenes. This week, Delevingne's Vogue cover feature was released, and inside, she speaks openly about her road to recovery.
At the time of her interview, the model was approximately four months sober. "If you have problems going into this industry, they will only get magnified and exacerbated. There is nothing about it that makes it better," she said. In September, Delevingne was photographed at a Los Angeles airport looking disheveled. She now offers an explanation.
Cara Delevingne's Addictions Go Back To Adolescence
"I hadn't slept. I was not okay. It's heartbreaking because I thought I was having fun, but at some point it was like, Okay, I don't look well." Delevingne added those photos were taken when she had just arrived back home from Burning Man. "You know, sometimes you need a reality check, so in a way those pictures were something to be grateful for."
She further admits that her struggles began when she was just a teen. "I was happy as a kid for sure, but I think when I grew up, I looked back and realized, That's not normal," said Delevingne. "And then as a teenager, it just all came plummeting down. That's also when I started drinking and partying. There was this need to escape and change my reality as I was hit with just huge questions: What am I doing here? Who am I trying to be?"
A History Of Addiction
After being diagnosed with dyspraxia, Delevingne was placed on several medications. At 15, she suffered a breakdown, but she told Vogue the medications helped save her. Delevingne's mother also struggled with addiction, and she's hoping to stop the cycle. "There's an element of feeling invincible when I'm on drugs. I put myself in danger in those moments because I don't care about my life." She revisited that time at Burning Man. "I would climb anything and jump off stuff...it felt feral. It's a scary thing to the people around you who love you."