So I never expected to be 30 and Single. My whole 20's I was in a long relationship. A Relationship that lasted for 8yrs. Yes 8yrs!!! I just knew we were going to be together for a lifetime. But as time went by my whole outlook on life itself changed. I started noticing myself changing, the things I use to like at 21 I didn't care for at 28. The way I viewed things changed. I had to realize I was changing for the better. I was changing, but I also felt lost. I guess that comes from leaving your comfort zone. I don't want to get into details on why we decided to part ways, just know we outgrew each other is all. He will always have a special place in my heart, and the memories we both shared will last forever. This was something I needed for me. I needed this time alone to figure out Tateana. What do Tateana really want out of life? Do Tateana even want to be married? These were things I was unsure about. When your with someone for so many years especially at a young age, it's common to lose yourself. We get so stuck in our comfort zone living that content life, but unhappy at the same time. That was me, not happy at all. I had a good man who would do anything to put a smile on my face, love my daughter like she's his, and I still felt unhappy. The problem wasn't him, I mean he had flaws, not going to make it seem like he was oh so perfect, but I never ever experienced being alone. I never knew the feeling of being single, I never really raised my daughter alone. I didn't know if I knew how to make myself happy. So as 30 was approaching, all I can say is "wow I can't believe im going into my 30s being a lonely bitch". But, I also had to keep in mind this is what I needed to grow, this is what I needed to do to be happy inside. I needed this time to be alone and figure myself out, date myself, and love myself. Yes I'm 30 and Single but I'm also happy. Happy that I'm finally making decisions from my heart.