Have you ever been stuck? Stuck in sadness, hurt, pain, insecurities? Or just plain stuck in life and you don't know what you want out life. You don't know what your purpose is. You're unhappy and you can't figure out the reason or reasons why you feel the way you do. I think everyone goes through some type of experience feeling "stuck" at one point or another.
I have battled sadness, feeling depressed and feeling unworthy of living my life. The darkness is overwhelming and it almost feels as if you're drowning and nobody can save you. I've felt inadequate working at a place where it feels as if it's out of my league to be there. I've experienced feeling as if I'm not smart enough or qualified enough to perform some of the tasks that have been required of me.
We as people are vulnerable to our emotions, the circumstances that we face and the environment that surrounds us. Sometimes we feel misunderstood by our family. Sometimes we stay in unhealthy relationships for much longer than we should for fear of being alone or for fear that there isn't anyone else in the world that will be better at loving us for who we are.
It took a lot for me to come out of this rut. Fortunately, I have been blessed with friends who I can count on to tell me the truth, not what I want to hear, but what I NEED to hear. It took a lot of soul searching. It took a lot of prayer. It took a lot of reading books and material that motivated and encouraged me to believe that I was sufficient, capable, adequate and more intelligent than I was giving myself credit for.
If you're feeling like this, let me be the first to tell you that YOU are enough. You are beautiful in all of your glory, flaws and all. Reach out to the people who you know will be there for you and love you unconditionally. Find a house of worship, regardless of your faith and connect with people who will give you encouragement, who will motivate you to be better, who will love and appreciate you despite your hurdles and downfalls. Pray and/or meditate. Create a time for yourself to love yourself and do something that you alone can do for yourself. With life's hustle and bustle, family, careers, school, etc. we forget that we need to love ourselves and relax. Listen to music that brings joy to your spirit. I remember going through a deep depression in my late teens and music helped me get out of that deep sadness. Read material that you think will help you feel better and will help you grow in whatever aspect of your life you'd like to improve on or grow in.
You will find yourself again. I know it's a process and it takes time to getting back to being 100% okay, so take your time and go at the pace that you feel comfortable moving until you find your stride. Just know that you are not alone. There is someone who loves you and cares for you enough to be by your side, even in your darkest moments. It's time to get up, shake off the negativity and darkness and lift up your eyes. Better days are coming and soon you'll have lifted off into the bright skies. You will be okay, I promise.