Dear Future Hubster,
I've been asked plenty of times, "Why don't you have a man?" And for the longest time my answer has been, "I'm picky!" Or my most famous line, "I don't take no B.S.!" Both statements are in fact true, but neither are the real reason why I don't have a man. While having a reflective moment, I realized that my desire to obtain, lol, and secure the love of my life all boils down to a small little word with a huge impact: TRUST! Coincidentally there's another word that needs TRUST that scares me even more, SUBMISSION.
You see at this age (bwhahahahahahaha...I sound as if I'm giving sound advice...right), I realize more that I have no real desire to casually date. For me there's a purpose, but you know that, right? For without the purpose of marriage, how would I be led to you??? In my misadventures of dating, I've yet to come across a man that I've felt that I could share my deepest darkest secrets or actually voice my insecurities to, and here's where trust comes to play. That's really my answer...
I don't have a man, because I haven't met someone that I can entrust my insecurities with. You know, those things that we even hide from our friends. I blindly and freely loved before and that person used my insecurities and abused my trust in the name of love. And the weirdest thing about all this is it wasn't until yesterday that I figured it all out. I long to love freely again, but I know it'll be a while before I can entrust you with these things. I can't wait to meet you!!!!